Hello. My name is Justin.

I'm in love with a Wal*Mart cashier.

So I was just watching the 5:00am news with my mom and this man who looks like the devil in anchoring. Anyway. they are showing this womans house burning down and showing a clip of it and her walking around her yard. They ended by telling us that she was fine, just that she suffered a singe on the back of her ear. At that very second I busted out laughing and couldn't stop and my mom just shook her head at me, haha. They should have added that she suffered a singe on her lower left butt cheek also.

I am now on my second cup of coffee and listening to Mariah Carey... about to sneezee!!! Ahhhhhhhhh there we go, okay...

... So, I got a phone call from Verizon yesterday. I got a job offer for the phone operator position I applied for and now I am stumped. I don't know what to do, I just started Ann Taylor LOFT but I am only part time (25-30 hours/ week) so I would like to have 40 hours a week or overtime at Verizon and also, I get full benefits! I really need that because I really need to visit the dentist!! Urgently! I already owe the bitches 77 more dolars and I am so afraid to go pay it because they sent me a bill for it like 3 weeks ago yelling at me saying its "DUE NOW!! We have been trying to reach you!!" - Yet I have never recieved a single message or telephone call from then, so fuck that. :) They made me cry once anyways, so they will just have to wait until I'm ready.

I got my haircut yesterdat morning. I went for a mullethawk but I left with... just a typical white boy haircut. I basically just wanted the sides cut short and the top and back trimmed so it'd be like a big mohawk/mullet but damn it! NO! I told her so so SO many times not to cut the back off! I outlined my head and where to cut and where not to, and still kept asking her "Why are you cutting the back?" "I don't want the back cut" "I'm just scared, just don't cut the back off" .... BAM! The backs cut off! FUCK! Anyway, now I'm just going to have to wait like... a month, and go get it cut again so it will be longer in the back... :) I will never learn my lesson when it comes to mall haircuts!

Wow, my first day of work @ Ann Taylor LOFT and I fucking love the hell out of it. I have so much fun with the customers. I have already caught on to everything and I know how to use the registers and everything and the managers were like thank you so much for jumping in today when we got so busy. I told them that I definitley wanted to at all times I just wasn't sure if they wanted me to since I am "training" but the one manager looks at me and goes, "HELL YEAH!" So anyways, I love my job and I have had so much fun so far with everyone I work with and alllll the ladies who come into the store shopping for clothes. Although, I did have one lady look @ me and tell her daughter "That's not right.." and she was a total bitch. I am pretty sure it's because I'm a guy working in a womens clothing store and plus I'm gay. Fuck that fat bitch, I wanted to be like "That big racoon on top of your head... damn that's not right!" "Hey bitch, K-Mart is right... cause you sure as hell can't afford anything in dis biatch!" Our clothes are SOOO expensive. I sold 435 dollars in clothes to one lady today, and this man bought his wife 1000 dollars worth of clothes this morning, he was just being a good husband. She wasnt even there! I loved it.

The green pastures and idyllic barnyard scenes of years past are now distant memories. On today’s factory farms, animals are crammed by the thousands into filthy windowless sheds, wire cages, gestation crates, and other confinement systems. These animals will never raise their families, root in the soil, build nests, or do anything that is natural to them. They won’t even feel the sun on their backs or breathe fresh air until the day they are loaded onto trucks bound for slaughter.

I've just spent the past 20-35 minutes @ peta.org which I came onto when I was searching about KFC chicken cruelty. I am so devistated and I can not believe what I have read and watched, looked at. Not just the chickens but every animal. The chickens made me cry a lot because I focused on them mostly, I use to have plany of chickens as pets myself. I don't think I can ever eat another chicken again.

Sittin' on the rocks at McDonalds,
Watchin' the cars go through the drive thru,
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Is you gonna' take my order?!
What in the hell do I have to do!?

I think Speckles is sad right now. I am not sure why, but I have a few ideas.

1. We have the chinchillas in our house now and ever since they had babies the rest of my family has been giving them a lot of attention, me... I just get sick of chasing the bitches around the house but I still love the cute little white one.

2. I haven't given Speckles as much attention as I use to, in the last year atleast.

3. Shes sexually frustrated. (Hey, you never know... like they always say - Let's do it like they do on the Discover Channel.

I mean, when I first found Speckles on the streets only a few weeks old I fell in love with her and I still am. I would do anything for my little girl and I have always been very protective over her. I hate when bitches mess with her! Anyways, also when I found her I didn't really do much. I didn't have a lot of people to talk to and I was still kind of going through some social anxiety crap so I spent most of my time with Speckles. I remember one time outside under the maple tree we were playing and there was a pile of leaves that Speckles kept attacking. I walked over and picked up a huge pile and poured them all over her back and she just went nuts and ran off. Also, all the times we would run around in circles in my yard and her pouncing on me as I go by, or just how much I use to talk about her... she was like my life. She is crouching down right next to me right now, i was holding her and giving her a little kitty massage. I just think she feels neglected. She peed in the house today and she could have possible poo'ed the other day but it might have been a hair ball. It was a very strange and huge shape so I am almost 100% sure it was a hair ball.

She has gotten so big, I have these pictures of her when she was smaller in my cabinets in the kitchen and laying on the couch. She has always been the cutest kitty ever. I just had a strange thought, Speckles has even seen me naked!

Anyways... Speckles if you could read and you were strolling through Livejournals one day I hope that this would mean a lot to you and I would want to know how much I love you... :)


::Speckles being pampered::

New livejournal layout! I LOVE YOU MS PAINT! <3

I can go to Livejournal.com, I can manage my livejournal and post in it as I am here, but FUCK! I can't view my damn journal or anyone elses and I can't look @ my friends page or anything. I click on my lj or type the address in and it just never goes, it tries to open it and then time runs out and it fails. FUCK LJ! Mutha fucka! Anyways, I am about to just delete the shit... actually, yes.. I probably will. I delete my livejournal abut 10 times a year so this isn't a rarity, it will be back... lol

Vaginas, Penises, Fugitive, Botox, and everything else! Just fucking forget about it man...

I just started this one a few hours ago, so I have a lot to work on still.



Something I started a few days ago but have yet to finish, it's my cat Speckles sleeping on my messanger bag.

I'm still not done, but oh my god it's beautiful!

I just fucked one of my eyebrows up SOO bad! :( I just want them both to grow all the way and then I want to start all over and make them beautiful again! If they were to grow all the way out I was have the BIGGEST eyebrows in the world, for real. Omg... gross. Anyways... :) Had to share my issue. Oh yeah, and my fucking tooth hurts... the one I got a filling in! DAMN IT! Aw... the beatles are serenading me right now... have been for hours actually. Okay, back to drawing...

Yay I bought my own domain name! Of course I haven't built the site yet but you should still go to the site, what I have there is pretty funny to me. Anyways,

aSQUIDnamedHARRYdotCOM

GO!

http://www.home.earthlink.net/~retroseason/

{color pencils}

Oh my gosh. I was on my way to bed, but first I had to get ready for bed by going to the bathroom... little did I know I would get stuck doing a serial killer and Jonathan Taylor Thomas for an hour!?

( Who knew? )

Today was a very peaceful day. I woke up this morning @ 10:00, had a cup of coffee and plucked my eyebrows. I left soon after to go out and work on some art. I stopped by the bank and then Micheals where I bought some more art supplies. I then headed over to Lake Morton where I drew a sketch of a tree in the water. I also drew a picture of my shadow in the grass with pastels which I so cleverly titled, "Shadow In The Grass On A Bench In The Park By A Lake." I then went on to Lake Mirror where I sat in the middle of the grass amphitheatre and held a mirror, drawing a self portrait. My third attempt is the best, I love it! After I finished there I went to Munn Park and sat on a bench where I just worked on the shading a bit more and enjoyed the outdoors.

The ducks and birds at Lake Morton were so freaking cute, I was so amazed just watching how they live... I don't know. Nature fascinates the hell out of me.

( Self portraits shall we? )

So tonight was fun, I finished my pottery I started last night. I went with Lauren and we had a nice convo while I painted. Back at her house we just messed around online, I real lots of old livejournal on my old livejournal rockridgepride. I was so amazed, I miss the old day. Theres things from so many years ago :)

Anyways, I am excited for Christmas eve. I have to work but we close at 9 so I should get off earlier than that because I will have worked all day. My mom is having everyone over for dinner and fun, we are also going to have good drinks! I am excited, it should be lots of fun.

I've realized something great tonight and I'm happy about it.